No… I can’t be selfish. My heart tells me gently that I never should be selfish. But why am I feeling that I am thinking for myself only these days? I recall those days when we used to talk without any reason and without any meaningful gossips. We were together for a reason and we made golden memories together. But now why don’t I want to speak to you? Why I feel that you don’t want to listen me? Why this distance between us? Should I forget all the things? Ah, lots of questions. I can’t be selfish as I know that only selfish person leave the things they care. That’s why my heart tells me this always and I want you to be happy always and I wish to be with you forever. People may leave you as they think only for themselves. World’s view of successful life is very different. They measure their success by bigger title, more money, better parking area, great stature, etc. This forces people to be selfish and leave you. But I won’t leave you lonely, I will be there always to wipe your tears away. Because I love you so much and I want you with all of my heart. I love my country!

I enjoyed this Christmas with full of blessings. I was able to attend carol in spite of my tight schedule at my office. I am too much tired today so I have just listed my activities of this week as my quick update. Will be back with more detail and other stuffs soon.

Saturday, December 20, 2008
Went caroling after Church service, venue: Dhobi chaur, Chhetrapati

Sunday, December 21, 2008
Went caroling after my office from Battisputali house fellowship

Monday, December 22, 2008
Went caroling after office, venue: Mangal Bazaar, Lalitpur

Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Attended Christmas celebration at UMN but missed carol singing of Battisputali house fellowship as I was not feeling well.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Went caroling after office from Battisputali house fellowship, stayed at Romi’s room

Thursday, December 25, 2008
Christmas Celebration at Nepali Isai Mandali, Gyaneshwor. Nepal’s first President Dr. Ram Baran Yadav visited our church to address all Nepali Christians on the occassion of Christmas.

Well, these are the quick updates of Christmas this year. Check out some of Christmas photos here and photos of UMN Christmas celebration here. Below is a video of Carole song ‘Jhutho haina satya ho yo’ recorded at Mangal Bazaar.

Writer: Dhruba Adhikari

मैले लेखें
र लेख्ने बेला सँधै उही सोचेर लेखें
मेरो देशको माटो लेखें
मेरो आमाले दिएको आँटो लेखें
मेरी दिदीले मलाई भनि सिएको भोटो लेखें
बाबुबाजेले नासो दिएको आनो/रोपनी फोहटो लेखें
दाइले सिकाएको मलाई
प्रेमी, मायालु, सद्भावी, सुशिल, भद्रभलाद्मी
अनि असलमा सफल हुन
बस्
त्यही मेरो परिवेश लेखें
मैले,
जे देखें
त्यही लेखें
जे लेखें
त्यही देखें
मेरो माटो मलाई अति प्यारो
मेरो देशको नामले नै पागल हुने म
मैले सिर्फ मेरो नेपाल लेखें
म गलत छैन
छैन गलत म ( … क्रोधित)
साला कसैको पेवा हैन मेरो देश
यो त मलाई मेरो पुर्खाले सुम्पेको
मेरो आफ्नो सम्पत्ति हो
छैन कसैलाई अधिकार
मेरो देशमा बसि रजाइँ गर्न
अनेक बहानाबाजी गरि
मेरो देशको सज्जा धमिल्याउन।

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My friend, I need you now-
Please take me by the hand.
Stand by me in my hour of need,
Take time to understand.

Take my hand, dear friend,
And lead me from this place.
Chase away my doubts and fears,
Wipe the tears from off my face.

Friend, I cannot stand alone.
I need your hand to hold,
The warmth of your gentle touch
In my world that’s grown so cold.

Please be a friend to me
And hold me day by day.
Because with your loving hand in mine,
I know we’ll find the way.

-By Becky Tucker

Just watched Indian Idol 4 in Sony Television. One of my favourite contestant Tullika Ganguly was eliminated despite giving her best performance. Well, Indian Idol 4 will be keep going with remaining twelve contestants. Let me stop this issue here. Now guess what’s today? I know it’s hard for you to guess. Today is the day when I arrived in this earth as my first child of my dad and mom. Now you got it. I was supposed to write this post yesterday as I got lots of wishes from my friends in advance. I think they know my busy Saturday schedule. But yesterday also I was busy in my works and some other stuffs so got time now to post this short post.

I thank you mom and dad. You gave me the life in the beginning, cared me when I was baby, advised me when I was growing and gave me a wonderful brother to be my friend. You have brought up my every needs. You all loved me always with unconditional love. I will never forget all this love and care I had. I have this amazing gift that I shall always return to people I love. Thank you Lord for giving me my family. Thank you all who wished for my best on my birthday and my special thanks to you for your early wish today! Love you all.

I always feel that pretty face,
But I find nothing except empty space.
Every moment I want to listen that soft voice,
But it just became my virtual choice.
My heart searches for that wonderful joy,
But it always returns me tear in my eye.
Every time I pretend that I am fine,
But only my heart knows this pain.

डिसेम्वर महिना लागेको छ र जाडो पनि बढ्दै छ । गत बर्ष जस्तै यो Christmas मा पनि Carole जाने योजना छ । आशा छ, त्यो समय चाँडै आउनेछ । तब सम्मको लागि मलाई मनपर्ने यो क्यारल गीत -

झुठो हैन सत्य हो यो एउटै मात्र जिउँ‍दो सत्य
कथा हैन कल्पनाको इतिहासको सिङ्गो तथ्य
ईश्चर जन्मे मानिस भएर आजको दिन धर्तिमा
उनी हुन् नासरतको येशू गाँउ उनको महिमा

भन जय हल्लेलुयाह होसन्ना येशूको
उनी जगका उद्धारकर्ता मुक्तिदाता सबको

जन्म पछि मर्छ मान्छे बाँचि आफ्नै लागि
जन्म मृत्यु दुई किनार हो हरेक प्राणीलाई
येशू जन्मे मान्छे भई बाँच्न सबका लागि
मृत्यु पछि अर्को किनार स्वर्ग पु-याउनलाई
उनको जन्ममा तारा हिंड्यो गाए स्वर्गदुतले
उनलाई खोज्ने ज्ञानीहरु र पाए गोठालाले

भन जय हल्लेलुयाह होसन्ना येशूको
उनी जगका उद्धारकर्ता मुक्तिदाता सबको

एउटा जन्म एउटा मृत्यु बुझेकै छ मानिसले
दोस्रो पल्ट जन्मिनु छ येशूलाई बुझ्न
ज्ञान र बुद्धि हार खान्छ यो अलौकिक सत्यमा
आत्माले नै मान्नुपर्छ म येशूको भन्न
येशू जन्मेको बुझौं हामी अनि मरौं आज
जन्मिनु छ शिशु बनेर उनकै आत्मबाट

भन जय हल्लेलुयाह होसन्ना येशूको
उनी जगका उद्धारकर्ता मुक्तिदाता सबको

झुठो हैन सत्य हो यो एउटै मात्र जिउँ‍दो सत्य
कथा हैन कल्पनाको इतिहासको सिङ्गो तथ्य
ईश्चर जन्मे मानिस भएर आजको दिन धर्तिमा
उनी हुन् नासरतको येशू गाँउ उनको महिमा

भन जय हल्लेलुयाह होसन्ना येशूको
उनी जगका उद्धारकर्ता मुक्तिदाता सबको

A childish question again! But think seriously and sincerely. It is really hard to be honest and sometimes it hurts a lot. Everybody wishes to be nice. But sometimes situation may come that we can’t be honest and nice at the same time. We want to be nice always in any charge. That’s a reason why we can’t be honest every time. I don’t believe that all truths are malicious but I know some are cruel. I guess that’s why we pretend to be good without revealing the truth.

Sometime we try not to be truthful thinking good for other. We pretend to be guilty to please or entertain others and I think this is wrong. I have always tried to be completely honest. Many times I have felt that my integrity screwed up everything. Seriously, honesty is a good quality that should be in every human being. But some truth hurts so much as mirror never lies. Honesty may harm things you love and want. It hurts more deeply in relationships. In this case only truth may be the cleanest and surest path to the solutions.

It may be difficult to maintain honesty in our life but our honesty protects us always. Honesty is giving your word and keeping it and one day it will be rewarded. Always give your best and the best will come back to you.

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